I guess this is one of those things that they talk about women feeling guilty when they shouldn’t. Maybe.
I was supposed to go to Vegas this weekend with a good friend. We were going to run a half marathon, and just have a girls weekend. We haven’t had that in a long time. I’ve missed her and missed having just some girl time. There would have been spa time and good food. It would have been expensive, but it’s one of those things that you plan for and just do once in a while.
But yesterday, I felt awful. Truly awful. Even the thought of packing or doing laundry had me in tears. I have not been this tired in years. I slept about 5 hours or so during the day, slept until 9:30 am that morning, was in bed and asleep by 11 that night. So… figure about 15 hours. I didn’t pack, didn’t do anything.
The thought of going to Vegas was overwhelming. No matter how much we planned on relaxing, there was a half marathon, and walking, and drinking, and hotel beds and hotel pillows, and flights and dry air… I just couldn’t do it.
So I bailed. On one of my closest friends. After she had a bad week. I suck.
I’m home on the couch, and she’s in Vegas.
I think the answer is that I should feel guilty and I shouldn’t at the same time. Obviously I did something that my body needed. Obviously I didn’t do something my friend needed. I always prefer to put my friends before myself. I hope I do that most of the time. I guess I just can’t do it all of the time.
I don’t feel anywhere near as bad today. My throat is a bit scratchy and my head is stuffy. I have a headache. No fever.
I know that I’m fighting sick, but I am fighting. I’m able to get up, do dishes, I might even clean something today. So I feel guilty that I’m not there. At the same time, the idea of being away from home this weekend still seems daunting. Plus, I’d hate it if I went to Vegas and got sicker or got her sick. So I’m home. I’m going to relax, knit, clean, read, and work on the blog. Hopefully after this weekend I’ll be back to my normal super-woman self. We need to start training for our marathon in June.
I need to find a weekend to go down and see my friend. At least Southwest refunded my money. So I can go see her sometime soon.